Whoa

chacawuawua

I think I must be more absentminded than what I had previously thought. Today I find a note, ordinary very simple really, I read it with no problem until the end. " - Britt" Who is this britt? I find myself thinking, revicing my memory files, my brow furrows, still I cant recall a brittney or a britt; then I start saying her name, perhaps saying it will bring some memory of her, its like a movie flashing in my head every scene I can recall of knowing of or meeting a brittney, and then suddenly, I see a friend, hear her voice, "this is my friend britt.." and the scene forwards to this person's face, that's her, now I remember her unusual way of walking and her almost irritating habit of always chewing gum.
I think Im getting Alzheimer's or at least, let me say this, temporary amnesia is very confusing, it sort of feels like not knowing where you are.

Nightmare

I have no inking as to why I should be dreaming such things. Except the second part of my dream, it turns out that listening to GT play the piano reminded me of her, and maybe because I wasnt there when she passed I feel some kind of mixed emotions of guilt, pain, sadness, and I really dont konw. I dont think I have dealt with the pain of her being gone.

I dont think I want to post this one. sorry GT

you never comment anyway! hehe