I want a smoke

Just watched thank you for smoking, again, bleh. I don't think the dude in that movie is attractive, maybe his hair, but eww, he looks like a weasel. Daniel Craig on the other hand, hahaha.

I hate not having enough time for a real conversation, something that sparks and then not having enough fuel for a fire, it's sort of like being interrupted in bed. maybe?

Im feeling anxious, sort of like wanting to start some project or a sketch or books.

I laugh at my father's affair with sugar, even if he is aware that he suffers from diabetes, he still manages to eat a cookie. Bad daddy. However, it is not to be taken lightly, diabetes kills, it is evil, but more evil is the shading the sun with one finger, in that it is denied. Sometimes Im scared for him and maybe even me, I don't want to have diabetes.

Oh the good old nineties music, hehe, yay.

I need new shoes for running around, my converse hurt, and my dear black ones are dead! they died while I was playing, and like a last gift to me lasted till the end of the game and saw me win. Even if we didn't really score that much, my passes and footwork was really really cool. Those shoes and I have memories.

Alejandro Fernandez is breathtaking when he sings rancheras, in a normal charro outfit please none of that gay leather pants thing, I want to be sung to, serenaded, preferably with La Mitad que me faltaba. sheesh.

Je suis fatigue

Milan won the champions! whee, good for Kaka, he's awesome.
Pumas sucked, but America did well so yay.
Finished Cicero but haven't started anything since, I feel my brain drying.
I need another job how sad.

Sometimes I feel inadequate, I think most average people think of me as intelligent while the stupid ones think Im not very smart. hahaha. what do you say to that? Thanks I suppose.

Jesus Camp freaks me out, but that Levi kid is cute, too bad he's named Levi and has a semi-mullet. oh yeah and goes to Jesus Camp.

Im worried about next semester, I hate being poor.

Now, tell me why did I tell someone I was adopted when I really don't know them that well? I think it's sort of like Cal in Middlesex, he tells random people he's a hermie and then for others he waits until he knows them well enough, adoption is not that big a deal I suppose, but still, it feels strange to say so, reveal it if you can say that. I also find that people tend to confide in me while I try to get over my shyness and rarely give something as substantial back. maybe it's loneliness that prompts them to say such things or I am that cool of a persone. hehe

I want to meet someone extraordinary. I want to be extraordinary.

When I called for mother's day I felt strange, like I betrayed some part of myself, dirty, anxious, almost bitter, and sad of course. It almost made me go confess, which is something I should do very soon. I regret calling. But then again, I am grateful for past things.

Man, this post is a downer.

regarde

Look at that! that's an image from NASA's Cassini probe, taken in 2004, in natural color. That's pretty incredible. It's really far away!

On other things, Pumas couldn't qualify and it is such a disappointment, they had a good team but they couldn't hold off their wins and kept ending games in ties, I think they had ten tied games, that's awful. However Santos who was fighting to stay in the Primera A is fighting for a chance to get in the liguilla, I don't agree with the repechage system at all, crappy teams have a chance but competent ones don't. shameful.

ManU lost to Milan in the semis for the Champions league so I suppose I shall be rooting for Milan, after all Kaka is on the team and he's brilliant.

I know Im not the only one that hates Alex trebbek, he's mean and manipulative, like he slows down the game and a player's tempo when he wants someone else to win, he over pronounces everything, and when someone answers wrong he acts like he knows it and yet he holds index cards with the answers. ugh.

And! sudan is refusing prosecution of war criminals! That's why africa is a lost cause.