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To the petition of substance:

There's a lady I know, she gets on my nerves at times due to her insecurity and what I gather are fibs about her son and finances. I know she seems like a good mother, at least from what I hear and all she does for her family, the baking, the going to concerts, making lunches, etc. I think the reason I disliked her at first was because she mothered me, that bothered me because of all the resentment and weird feelings I have for my mother, and it made me act in a way that I didn't like. I was a bit rude, and indifferent, but now, I have tapered and even if she gets to me sometimes I no longer fall prey to such behavior. I still feel weird when people ask or make comments about one of my parents, because in reality she hasn't been and will no longer be that anymore. Like when someone asked me what are you getting for mother's day, I hesitated so long and must've looked uncomfortable it was awkward, even after the nervous laughter. This is the first year that my father didn't bother me about May 10, and i suppose it's sad and strange I have no attachment to any of them. I think once I lied to myself that I had forgiven, but from time to time I struggle and my anger stems from the hurt caused to my sister. What is that sentiment of kind of knowing and remembering something I felt briefly?


Mostly I like songs for certain parts of them.

The rain today cooled the day, if you had stood in the shade and felt the slight breeze.

I still need scrubs, the store closes at five.

Headache

So very tired because my sleep schedule is so disrupted, last night I fell asleep sometime around four, and even though I had nothing to wake up to, my body managed to wake around nine. Truly upsetting since I haven't been able to fall asleep since, and I'm getting a headache. Blah.

Mexico had a shameful loss to Argentina, 4-1. It was awful that I decided to stop watching, this hasn't happened very frequently, it was just bad. We have a new coach that's supposed to make a team out of these losers, the thing is he knows nothing about Mexican football, you should've seen his face, like oh non what did I get myself into. The funniest thing was that he kept writing notes after every Argentinian goal, haha.

Portugal won their first game, I didn't see much beautiful game, Ronaldo I think was well marked, he almost scored with a free kick. I just want Poland to make the next round, losing 2-0 to Germania is not that bad, and why do I like Poland? Because they have an awesome coach, Benhakker and Pope John Paul II was Polish, teehee.

I need to buy scrubs but the only place I know is in a mall far away, Im not sure if the store remains open.

none + extended

Oh mon Dieu, the sun burns us!

Drink Sweet Leaf tea.

I can't wait for Saturday, it shall be fun, even with the rain and the muggy weather.

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My uncle Fernando Rafael Castañeda Sabido, fue designado director de la Facultad de Ciencias Políticas y Sociales de la Universidad Nacional Autónoma de México (UNAM). Congratulations!

For those of you who do not speak Spanish, he's the new president of political and social sciences faculty for the biggest university in Mexico, that is truly remarkable.

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This past third of June marked another year MaNydia is gone, I can't tell you how much I miss her.